Monday, October 31, 2011

So I will head out alone, hope for the best


The reasons a person may move are endless. Whether it's a job, a school, a new start, or maybe just a leap of faith, moving happens all the time.  I'm a fan of it.  

As many know, I went to the University of Iowa my freshman year.  I have never once given a very specific and detailed reason as to why I left.  I have told everyone "it was not for me" and that's that.  I would have stayed if I liked it.  I promise.  So as much as I heard, "it's only your first year, maybe the second year will be better", I had a sneaky feeling it would not.  Sure, how would I ever know if it was better or if "it was for me?"  I wouldn't know then...but I would eventually know.

Before that interesting year in Iowa, I visited Washington.  I have several family members and was able to see each one of them.  My uncle who works at Western Washington University took us on a brief walk through campus.  It was pretty.  That was all that crossed my mind.  The trip was over before I knew it and I was back in Illinois getting ready for Iowa.

So back to the end of that year...I started looking at Western because I thought I needed to leave the Midwest.  I don't know why, I just thought that would be best for me at the time.  Thankfully, I took a year to complete a few classes at the community college and spend time with my parents, brother, and cousin before getting outta sight and outta mind.  Okay, not outta mind...I just said that.  I applied to Western to complete my college career.  It did not cross my mind to apply anywhere else just in case (although it crossed my mother's mind, I did not realize she was holding her breath every day until my acceptance letter arrived).  I knew I was moving regardless. :-)

I think everyone should move at least once.  Okay, the actual moving part could be less stressful...but once you arrive?  Happiness ensues!  I promise.  Well I cannot promise that, but I can hope for everyone to just be happy dammit.  Moving opens your eyes to new obstacles and new experiences.  Once you are in a new location, that will happen no matter what you do to try to prevent/promote those things.  Another perk of moving to a new place?  New people!  If you are a reader, you know I could write novels on the people and friends I've met during my time in Washington.  I cannot imagine my life without any of them.  The ups and downs have made me become a better person (at least in my own head, but I try daily).  They are blessings.  I gravitate toward these people.

Am I saying it's easy to leave your family and friends?  No way.  I could never say that because I could never tell you it's easy living so far away.  I constantly look at houses and think "I could really see my parents living in that house."  But they have built their lives elsewhere and they are letting me build my life elsewhere.  How can I even begin to thank them?  Leaving loved ones provides heart ache with which we can all relate.  It tugs at your body from every direction. It allows tears to easily roll down your cheek when you are simply walking down the street or looking at the sky.  And when the time is just right, it briefly goes away when you go home to visit.

There are so many opportunities and so much to discover.  I just wanted to tell the world that moving can change your life.  You just have to take that job or change schools or make a new start or take a leap of faith.   And if you need any one to hold your hand, I'll have it stretched out for you.

My move was not something that I had dreamed about for many years.  It was not something I thought I would do at the age of 20.  It was not something that I had researched for months before taking the next step.  Something in my head and in my heart told me I would be okay.

          Best,
                 Anne

Saturday, October 29, 2011

A penny for my thoughts

I think we should take this to heart...


"All of us could take a lesson from the weather...it pays no attention to criticism"






Goodnight. I miss you. I love you. I'm grateful for you. All of you.


        Best, 
               Anne

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Unlockout

The television shows that are on this fall have already kept me occupied for 30-60 minutes every couple of days each week.  I have my favorites, as does anyone, but there is something seriously lacking from my favorites.  The NBA.  Each day I wake up to check in with ESPN to see if any decision has been reached during this bitter lockout.  I'm less concerned about the amount of money players are getting as I am just watching basketball so consistently.  I have received less negative comments regarding the Lakers, but I would rather hear the comments and watch them play, than watch them not play.  Ever since I can remember, I've had basketball games in the background of my night or anticipated a match up against two rival teams.  Growing up was special because I was able to join my brother and dad in the family room to complain about watching the games only to end up becoming entranced in every dribble, every lay-up, every dunk, and every buzzer beater. Slowly I admired the game.  I played the game.  I enjoyed the game.  I attended the game.  Now, I just miss the game.








Better start practicing my Italian..."Vada, Kobe!"

          Best,
                 Anne

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

I did not forget

I have not told you about the Chicago marathon yet.  I know it was so two weeks ago but I just never had a chance to fully explain that warm day in Chicago.  If you want the Sparknotes, please read and stop after this sentence: It was amazing!

Continuing on.  The marathon was on Sunday, October 9, 2011.  I had spent over a week before  the marathon soaking up the 70 degree days in Illinois and enjoying my time, as I knew I probably would not return for awhile.  As the days grew closer to the marathon, I found it extremely difficult to focus on anything other than running.  I read articles, found inspirational sayings, and imagined what the day would be like prior to the actual race day.  In my whimsical mind, everything was perfect.  I would practically fly through the air and cross the finish line with ease.  Dream big, right?  I think it's okay if our expectations exceed our reality sometimes because what's the point in waiting until your reality hits to know your capabilities?

The day before the marathon had arrived.  I went to the health expo at McCormick place with Melissa and Brad. The energy was flooding through my body.  Knowing that everyone you saw would be losing sleep and joining you for a few hours of running in the morning was inspirational.  People of every shape and size run marathons and it's nice to see the uniqueness that make up the 45,000 people coming together for one common goal: to run a marathon.  Run we shall.

The 5:00 a.m. alarm came before I knew it.  When the alarm went off, I bolted off the couch.  There is no time to even consider a snooze button.  I find I have similar thoughts when I have to catch an early morning flight.  Your heart beats in a different way when you are in need of getting somewhere.  Even still, I was tired but anxious.  Eventually Meliss and little Lucy emerged and we all walked to Grant Park to start the race.  I was nervous because the temperature was...pleasant.  It should not be pleasant at 6:15 a.m., it should be brisk and I should be shivering.  No luck.  The sky was beautifully dark blue and the sun was ready to rise.  I was ready to run.

Before I knew it, I was packed in with the other runners.  I wondered where they were from and when they woke up.  I wondered if this was their first marathon or fifth.  I wondered if we would all get that free beer at the end.  I wondered if--"oh, we're moving!"

The race began and I was smiling from ear to ear.  The cheers were echoing throughout the city.  I was sort of in awe...I had talked to my family about staying on the right side because it's nearly impossible to find anyone if you aren't looking.  Even when I was looking, I was in another world so it was hard to put faces to family members.  My family was waiting around mile 4 but I did not see them.  They claim they saw me but, I just don't know about that.  Just kidding.

I still was not lacking any people to cheer for me.  I wore my "Beat Cancer" shirt that, yes, I purchased freshman year at the University of Iowa, but I still wear it all the time.  Since it was Breast Cancer Awareness month and I wasn't running for Susan G. Komen, I wanted to wear the shirt.  At least 15 people yelled "Beat Cancer!!" at me while I was running.  I gave them a smile and a thumbs up (you don't think about what you are doing when you are running...hence the thumbs up...)

I read signs, looked at costumes, glared at people drinking mimosas, and gazed at the beautiful city.  I felt lucky.  I felt overwhelmed.  I felt ecstatic.








I felt loved.

Check out my moments that were captured during the race: Own Chicago
   
      Best,
              Anne

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Shout out...

...to my brother John.  Thank you for purchasing the domain savedbythebellingham.com

You will earn half of what I make from the blog.

So hey everyone,

forget the ".blogspot.com"

Because it's just "savedbythebellingham.com"

And I owe it all to John, as I do most things in my life.  I miss you lots.
 
        Best, 
                Anne

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Here in these deep city lights, a girl could get lost tonight.

I think about life a lot.  The term "life" as well.  When people ask what I'm busy doing, I usually do not even have time to specify...it's just "life."  Life keeps me busy.  The thing is, that is the lamest response and I'm owning up to it.  Everyone is busy with life.  It's like saying you are busy breathing, which I am by the way.  Always.  The true part about life is that it's incredibly unexpected.  Sure, I did not have to tell you that, but it is worth repeating, at least for my own sanity purposes.  I've been overwhelmed lately by all sorts of things.  Mostly because I received a second job offer on my first day of work at my current job.  This sort of overwhelmed feeling has been good.  I mean, I'm certainly lucky for opportunities that I have received lately.  It's a little funny sometimes.  I ask God, "why me?" a lot.  "Why now?" "Why here?" "Why do some things work out when you don't expect them to?" And lastly, "why can't I just trust that life will work out the way it is supposed to?"  Unanswered questions in an unexpected life.  How uncann(e)y.  Do not get me wrong, I'm excited about this life ahead for the time.  If one day can change your direction, any day has the very same possibility.  I am happy about that because I'm all for equal opportunity.*  So I cannot complain one bit.  I'm just curious...like George.  I'm also curious if I can swing from trees.  

Even still, I cannot help to feel like I'm drowning sometimes.  Surely I am not the only one.  That's why I am here talking about it because I want to let you know that we all feel overwhelmed for one reason or another.  I'm trying to focus on positive parts of life, rather than negative.  I'm trying to have a healthy mind as well as a healthy lifestyle.  I'm trying to rid myself of  unwanted thoughts.  I'm also trying to beat my brother in Words with Friends.  

Needless to say, I am trying.  

           Best, 
                 Anne


*Keeping all thoughts that relate to a particular politician, party, stance, and poor judgment in my head

Friday, October 14, 2011

Calm





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           Best, 
                   Anne

Monday, October 3, 2011

Sometimes...

...I wish you really could move mountains.


    Best, 
            Anne

Sunday, October 2, 2011

Ahh!

Seven days.  See you in Grant Park.

          Best,
                  Anne